and it begins

the blog.
for me... this will be a space where i can explore who the hell i am.

annonomously... aptly named the "adventures of the apathetic"
i am a contradition. i am complex. i am an enigma.

adventure: hazardous enterprize; a bold undertaking; to riskor hazard; to dare; to venture.

apathetic: void of feeling; free from passion; indifferent.

to start this thing i think we will have to start exacly where i am right now. i am depressed. something in me does not want to admit to this depression. but it might just be true. and the first step to healing is the admition of the desease... right? i am concerned about many things. my inability to live the way i should. my lack of love for others. my lonliness. me. my selfishness. the world. why it is so cruel... yet intriges my passions. war. death. my own ability to kill steal and distroy. fear. the internet. needing a reason for everything. mainly these things plauge me. that is pretty much a formula for depression... is it not? i want out.

and so... here i am.